neonskywildhaze:

I need to go home to Stockton, because my mind is fucking up in this city. It’s been too long and I’m beginning to feel resentment towards where I’m at, and I shouldn’t feel that way. Time and health ain’t in my favor though. I can picture the perfect setting—the cool of the night, the summer sun settings, the delta breeze, blunt smokin’ with the homies, gettin’ drunk at Tap, random walks to the park, stoge talks with my best friend, “Where the party at?” text messages, lovely/real/funny conversations and anyone and everything that was part of the comfortable me. I know sometimes I say to grow you have to get out of your comfort zone and build bridges to get over the past, but I’m just not like I was and I think about that everyday. I know I can’t stay idle like that forever, but fuck.. it’s a part of me that has the most trouble mending. Sick and tired of the same ol’ routines, and on top of that I’m tired of being sick. Maybe this sickness is making me nostalgic and depressed and I’m missing the homies who actually gave a fuck, but they’re so far away. Fuck it. I need fun, but fun ain’t the same anymore.

OMG YOU JUST SPOKE MY MIND RIGHT NOW. This post is so on point. Real talk and this is exactly how I feel about Stockton/Lathrop too :/  

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  1. simplymeesh reblogged this from neonskywildhaze and added:
    OMG YOU JUST SPOKE MY MIND RIGHT NOW. This post...point. Real talk and
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